A lot has changed since last year. I remember talking to my dad about a year ago. He was telling me that he thought sometimes God just likes to pull the rug out from under you. You’re walking along, living your life, thinking you finally have a clue … thinking that you know something … thinking that things are starting to make sense … and then, WHAM! You wake up and you’re alone in your head and you realize that you don’t know anything and nothing makes sense and you don’t have a clue and you have no idea what’s happening and suddenly everything is completely different. I think that, too. It seems like every year on my birthday (or nearabouts) I stop for a second and recognize that I know nothing.

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  1. I have a similar theory, though not related to God. I call it the theory of Leif (pronounce: life). I see life as a card game, where you play against Leif. Only thing is, he’s cheating. Not to be mean, but to teach you how to play the game. I could go on about it, but I’d rather just leave you to draw your own conclusions.

  2. Wow there are a lot of birthday’s this month. I love the line “alone in your head” I have to use that phrase in something. Happy birthday! :o)

  3. Happy Birthday David. I had the same realization yesterday on MY birthday, laying on the beach. Not only do I feel like I know nothing more and maybe even less as another year passes, but that in regards to the greater sceme of things, I should work less on trying to control the outcome of things, and more on enjoying where life takes me.Did that even make sense? I hope it did somehow. Happy Birthday kiddo.

  4. we’re all clueless. happy b-day.

  5. Is the problem actually that you think you know anything to begin with?

  6. Not you personally of course, I think this applies to all of us.

  7. Hey, it’s been way too long but curiosity has kept me reading to see what’s new and how you’re doing… strange, I suppose… that’s me. I think this way often, how you say in this entry… each year I change so drastically, only it’s usually no where near when my birthday is when I realize it… hope life is treating you well.^_^

  8. Oops….I forgot your birthday! Hope it was excellent! I think God pulls the rug out on purpose to keep us moving forward or maybe just to wake us up once in awhile.

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