from 10/02/95, for AML 3124
There was a time when at a time could be not at a time but of a time and that could be enough all. And there was a time in that time that a time could be enough with it all being all there was needed that was all there was. But now we live in a time and so has every one at some time lived in this time because this time is all there ever was to live because all time is this time. But now we live not in that time that is not now but is a time which is able to not be now because we can now see that that time that was not this time has always been this time because all time is this time that was not this time. Now this time that we live is the time we have to live in this time is all there is to time if we want to live in time and to write in a time is to write in for all time. To write for all time we have to write in for all time and not for a time that once was this time and will never have been this time. By saying that to write for a time I mean to write for all time is to write for this time and not for a time that was not this time. To exist in time and to write in this time is to be for all time. It is always has been this way and to deny that this is is not to accept the simple most elegant of all facts points that have always been that this time is not a time. So when something which has been written for a time is read in this time is not able to be read in this time can be unable to be read and accepted as something which has been written.
When something is written which was not to be written for this time but for a time which is not this time is not to be read in this time because this time is all time. Text is alive. Time is passing and time that has passed is still this time but if this has been written for all time it can be read can be accepted this time. Has this time been wasted which is time which has been spent writing for a time which is not this time? This is not will never have been this time but once was seen as this time when it should have been seen as all time and not this time. If this was written for all time it would be accepted when I mean accepted and not just read it would be able to be still continuing and not dead. But this has not been written for all time but simply for this short time this ephemeral time because how can something which is no longer accepted be able to be read in this time?
There once was the time to take and write these things but that time is no longer this time. This time is for writing and there is no writing but this writing which is able to be taken and eaten and absorbed and allowed to convince. What can writing be but swallowed whole and not in tiny chunks which don’t really taste like a meal made at home? If something which is written is not able to be read and not even written as it should be it is not really written. Things which are not written cannot be read there is no way to deny this. I have written before when I was writing for a time which was not a time to be spent writing everyone has at some time written like this. There once was a time when writing like this was what we knew how to write but we should learn to write in the only way things can be written. To be accepted and read is the only way to write. Text is alive. At the very least we are writing for all time and if this time is not all time what we are writing have written is not. To be sure we cannot always know what time it is when we are writing. But we can know when we are being read. When we read we have read what has been written so if it was not written for this time has it really been written? It cannot have been read and you will know that this was written not for this time sometime it is simply a matter of reading what is written in the when when it was written.
Composition is understanding communicating is always writing and not communicating is not writing. If what is written is not communicating we have not written but merely pretended in a masturbating of writing. If what is written is not communicating we have not written. We have not written what can be read and we are not communicating. If we have been masturbating we have not been writing because what is writing if it is not and it is communicating. If you cannot be communicating and you cannot if you have not been writing what can be read what can you be said to have been doing but masturbating? There is a certain communicating being done in masturbating but it is not understanding or being able to be read but simply being writing. This is not writing and if it is not writing and it is not writing what is it but masturbating? To be sure we cannot always know what time it is when we are masturbating but it is not this time which is a time which was not all time. We cannot always have been masturbating when we have been writing if we have not been able to be understanding what we are having read. I am not the first to say this I am not the first to say writing is masturbating if it is not writing but is masturbating even when it is writing. But if this masturbating is not understanding writing but writing which is for not this time but a time which once was this time but is not now this time it is now writing which is now writing this time but now masturbating and not ever now writing.
Text is alive.
I can explain what this writing is but if this writing does not say what this writing is is it writing which was now to be read or writing which is now masturbating? There is a man named Blake who was writing what was masturbating but now it is writing it is read. It is read. It is read. It is read. It is now writing which is read and not now writing which is masturbating now because now it is writing because it is read even though there is no understanding because it is was masturbating. When I am writing this I am knowing that it is not now masturbating and not writing which will always be now writing but will be soon now masturbating. I hate that this is not now writing I hate I hate I hate that this is soon to be now masturbating when now it is writing. I want it to always be now writing but I know it cannot will not. I know it is not now writing in the future but it is now writing now and that is what is painful for any one of us trying to communicate. But until we understand that that is the inherent feature of all writing all now writing all reading we cannot presume to be communicating and we are not writing to be read but only to want to be read.
Everyone writing wanting to be read is wanting to be writing being communicating understanding. Everyone writing wanting to be read is wanting to be writing being communicating. Everyone writing wanting to be read is wanting to be writing being understanding. Everyone wanting to be read is writing being communicating understanding. Everyone writing wanting to be read is wanting to be writing being communicating understanding. In our time it is being wanting understanding that is not communicating and now masturbating is not now writing and now not read. So now this is now writing but it is not now writing now.