Don't everyone thank me at once.

September 22nd, 2013 @ 5:13 am
Sixty-Five

Today would have been mom’s 65th birthday. My little sister took this photo of me hugging her just before Mother’s Day last year. I miss her so much that it hurts, a phrase that people use frequently but not literally. But I very literally feel an ache in my heart. The last time I saw […]

September 20th, 2013 @ 5:16 am
Friday Five: Disney Parks

DisneyMy five favorite Disney theme parks:

  1. Walt Disney World
  2. E.P.C.O.T.
  3. Disneyland
  4. California Adventure
  5. Disney’s Hollywood Studios (formerly Disney-MGM Studios)
August 23rd, 2013 @ 8:23 am
Friday Five: Things I Thought I’d Be When I Grew Up

Battlestar GalacticaIn no particular order:

  • Space Fighter Pilot
  • Cowboy
  • Lawyer
  • Author
  • Archaeologist
August 16th, 2013 @ 7:49 am
Friday Five: Memories

Kathleen A. GagneMonday was the first anniversary of the death of my mom. Here are five things I really miss about her:

  • the sound of her saying my name
  • desperate fear of every hurricane, tropical storm, earthquake, forest fire, volcano, etc.
  • singing together
  • the ticklebug
  • always — always — having someone to call who was guaranteed to be excited to hear my voice
August 12th, 2013 @ 8:10 am
Kathleen A. Gagne

My mom died one year ago today. It simultaneously feels like it was only yesterday and like it was a thousand years ago. I miss her so much that there is an actual ache in my heart. She died much too young. It was undeserved and unfair and unjust and I still rage inside that […]

August 10th, 2013 @ 10:23 pm
A Sunny Day

I spent a half-dozen painful hours on the phone exactly one year ago tonight. My mom had been rushed to the emergency room and I was desperate for answers. The hospital had told me she was fine; she had a urinary tract infection which was causing acute temporary dementia, but they’d given her some antibiotics and sent her back to the assisted living facility and told me not to worry. I’d been worrying non-stop for months and wasn’t about to stop then.

August 2nd, 2013 @ 7:55 am
Friday Five: Important Things to Consider When Moving

socketFive very important, but often overlooked, factors to consider when buying or renting a new house or apartment:

  • Bathroom Water Pressure
    You will sometimes be happy about the fact that your new place has a pool or a spacious living room, but you will take a shower every single day.
  • Kitchen Sink Height
    If your counters are at the wrong height relative to how tall you are, you may hate bending to do the dishes.
  • Shower Ventilation
    If there isn’t enough airflow you may find yourself constantly battling mold or mildew.
  • Bathroom Noise Insulation
    I’m not just talking about the baffling properties of the toilet bowl here: Do the drains loudly gurgle? Does the sink sound like a jet engine? Can someone on the other side of the door hear every time you pluck a nose hair?
  • Power Outlets
    How old is this place? Was it built before every single person entering the house needed to charge a cell phone? Are there enough sockets in the kitchen to power a coffee machine, coffee grinder, blender, rechargeable battery unit, at least one cell phone, a TV or radio, a toaster over, and the electric can opener?
August 1st, 2013 @ 8:05 am
I will be chasing your starlight.

I read Happy Yoga the week before my birthday, and then in July I read Bad Monkey, World War Z, and In the Heart of the Sea: The Tragedy of the Whaleship Essex1. Two non-fiction and two fiction is a pretty good balance, I think. A twenty-something David would never believe it if you told […]

July 12th, 2013 @ 10:32 pm
Runaway

One of my favorite memories of my mom — of my entire childhood, actually — is singing Runaway by Del Shannon in the car with her and my little sister while driving to St. Paul’s Catholic elementary school. I love that song. She loved that song. She loved singing that song. Mom loved music. And […]

June 23rd, 2013 @ 5:25 pm
Not Dark Yet

Aside from Green Eggs & Ham a thousand times, and the Hemingway novels I was reading my son as bedtime stories when he was an infant, I haven’t managed to read a single book in almost three years. That should be an astounding fact to anyone who has known me for a while, since I […]

June 20th, 2013 @ 9:19 pm
Scott Farcas Takes It on the Chin

I should note two things here: (a) It wasn’t until I was in my late 30s that I first saw A Christmas Story, so I had no idea who Scott Farcas was for a long, long time and (2) It’s hard to imagine that the Less Than Jake song Scott Farcas Takes It on the […]

June 7th, 2013 @ 8:17 am
Friday Five: Favorite Vacation Destinations

HawaiiMy five favorite places to spend a vacation:

  1. Maui, Hawai’i
  2. The Magic Kingdom
  3. La Quinta, Palm Springs, California
  4. Paris, France
  5. Vail, Colorado
May 17th, 2013 @ 7:07 am
Friday Five: Best Los Angeles Restaurants

Rodeo Drive

May 10th, 2013 @ 8:42 am
The Horizon Is a Beltway

I had a conversation about my mom with a woman who had also lost her mother. Her mother had been sick for some time, and she died peacefully in a hospice, holding her daughter’s hand. The woman told me her mother had had a stroke, but that somehow she smiled just before she died, and that she knew her mother had gone to a better place.

I said that it must have been very comforting for her, and tried my best to be polite and sensitive. But inside I was screaming.

May 8th, 2013 @ 7:24 am
Before You Came into My Life

I’ve had my Nike Fuel Band for 294 days. I know this because one of the statistics it tracks is how many days you’ve been “active”, and I have worn it every single day since I got it. I can’t begin to tell you what a great motivational tool it is. I am a little […]

May 3rd, 2013 @ 11:55 pm
Scribbled Drunk on a Postcard, Sent from Somewhere Volcanoes Are

It’s tough to be upset about a day that includes a ten-mile run before breakfast, lunch at The Stand, and a trip to Disneyland. But here we are. For the very first time since Kelly gave me my Nike Fuel Band almost a year ago, I didn’t wear it all day. I started leaving it […]

May 3rd, 2013 @ 6:59 am
Friday Five: Breakfast Foods

Bacon and EggsMy five favorite breakfast foods:

  1. Scrambled Eggs with Bacon
  2. Greek Yogurt and Granola
  3. Chocolate Chip Pancakes
  4. Chocolate Chip Blueberry Muffins
  5. Raisin Bran
April 29th, 2013 @ 7:08 am
It Ought to Be Easier

It’s really hard for me to wrap my head around the idea that Tim might not make it in the NFL. It seems absurd to me. When my alarm rang at six this morning, there was a text waiting for me that read, “Heard Tebow was cut from NPR before ESPN.” My first thought was […]

April 22nd, 2013 @ 7:40 am
Gonna Fly Now

I have been absolutely nuts for oranges and orange juice lately. I remember when I was a little kid I would go through phases during which I craved OJ like mad, but it’s been probably twenty-five years since the last time that happened. But now I’m drinking two or three glasses every morning and eating […]

April 19th, 2013 @ 9:39 pm
Mall Parking Lots / on Holidays

I knocked out a quick four miles after watching all the drama in Boston on Friday night. I spent most of the run thinking about Miranda rights and terrorism and democracy. And when I wasn’t thinking about those things I was thinking about how much I wished I could talk to my mom about those […]