I'm very good at integral and differential calculus.

It’s been 15,000 days since I was born. It is a meaningless number, but I felt like I should mention it.

I wish my mom was around to celebrate this milestone. She’d undoubtedly think it was really cool.

June 27th, 2014 @ 8:17 am
Friday Five: Favorite Rides

I’ve owned eleven cars in my life. Here are my five favorite:

  1. 1976 Ford Mercury Monarch
    My first car is still my favorite. It was a massive white tank with a red interior and a broken gas gauge. The engine died because nobody ever thought to tell me it was important to change the oil in a car.
  2. 2001 BMW 330ci
    I owned this car in Los Angeles and loved having a convertible. I had to give it up, though, because I couldn’t afford the maintenance costs.
  3. 1981 Toyota Corolla-Tercel
    My second car ranks highly on this list purely because of how many great times I had in it. I bought it for $800 with 200,000 miles on it and sold it for $800 with 300,000 miles on it.
  4. 1987 Toyota 4×4
    I bought this car in 2002 from a buddy just before he moved to New Zealand. It was probably the most dependable vehicle I’ve ever owned.
  5. 1991 Honda CRX Si
    This was my upgrade when I got rid of the Corolla-Tercel. It was Nike-green and awesome.
June 26th, 2014 @ 9:42 am
Throwback Thursday
June 6th, 2014 @ 6:11 am
Friday Five: 1975 Photos

Here are five photos of yours truly from 1975. Four are from March — about three months shy of my second birthday — and one is from June, presumably around my birthday. They are some of the only photos I have of myself as a child, and they were (apparently) very special to my mom, who kept them safe and very close to her for almost forty years. She died on August 12, 2012 and I miss her more than she’ll ever know.

June 5th, 2014 @ 8:42 am
Throwback Thursday
May 29th, 2014 @ 8:51 am
Throwback Thursday
May 22nd, 2014 @ 8:05 am
Throwback Thursday: Happy Birthday Edition
May 15th, 2014 @ 8:43 am
Throwback Thursday
May 11th, 2014 @ 5:16 am
Mother’s Day

This is the last photo taken of me and my mother together. My little sister took it on May 11, 2012, when I visited mom at Coastal Rehab in Port Orange, Florida for Mother’s Day weekend. Mom died three months later, and I miss her more than words can say.

May 1st, 2014 @ 8:06 am
Throwback Thursday
April 24th, 2014 @ 7:56 am
Throwback Thursday
March 11th, 2014 @ 9:50 pm
On My Career …

My 3 ½ year old son was asked at school to say what his dad did at work all day. His answer? “He works around and sings.”

January 24th, 2014 @ 7:49 am
Friday Five: Teenage Wasteland

I did a bunch of odd jobs before I turned fifteen and was legally allowed to work in Florida. I had gigs mowing lawns, selling airbrushed license plates at the Daytona Beach Flea Market, selling ice cream during the races at Daytona International Speedway, going door-to-door selling Christmas wreaths for charity, &c. Once I turned fifteen, though, I was able to get a “real” job. Here are the five best “real” jobs I had before I turned twenty:

  1. dishwasher / prep cook · Carmichael’s Sports Pub
  2. Sandwich Engineer · Subway
  3. line cook · Arthur Treacher’s Fish & Chips
  4. counter man · TCBY
  5. pool cleaner / lotion sales · Hawaiian Tropic
November 6th, 2013 @ 5:58 pm
The Five Stages of Feeding a Toddler

See also: Kübler-Ross Denial “What? You can’t be serious. You just said you wanted peanut butter and jelly.” Anger “You eat this bite right now. Sit down! Eat it!” Bargaining “Please? Please have another bite? If you have another bite you can have more chocolate milk.” Depression “I can’t believe you’re not going to eat […]

September 22nd, 2013 @ 5:13 am
Sixty-Five

Today would have been mom’s 65th birthday. My little sister took this photo of me hugging her just before Mother’s Day last year. I miss her so much that it hurts, a phrase that people use frequently but not literally. But I very literally feel an ache in my heart. The last time I saw […]

August 23rd, 2013 @ 8:23 am
Friday Five: Things I Thought I’d Be When I Grew Up

Battlestar GalacticaIn no particular order:

  • Space Fighter Pilot
  • Cowboy
  • Lawyer
  • Author
  • Archaeologist
August 16th, 2013 @ 7:49 am
Friday Five: Memories

Kathleen A. GagneMonday was the first anniversary of the death of my mom. Here are five things I really miss about her:

  • the sound of her saying my name
  • desperate fear of every hurricane, tropical storm, earthquake, forest fire, volcano, etc.
  • singing together
  • the ticklebug
  • always — always — having someone to call who was guaranteed to be excited to hear my voice
August 12th, 2013 @ 8:10 am
Kathleen A. Gagne

My mom died one year ago today. It simultaneously feels like it was only yesterday and like it was a thousand years ago. I miss her so much that there is an actual ache in my heart. She died much too young. It was undeserved and unfair and unjust and I still rage inside that […]

August 10th, 2013 @ 10:23 pm
A Sunny Day

I spent a half-dozen painful hours on the phone exactly one year ago tonight. My mom had been rushed to the emergency room and I was desperate for answers. The hospital had told me she was fine; she had a urinary tract infection which was causing acute temporary dementia, but they’d given her some antibiotics and sent her back to the assisted living facility and told me not to worry. I’d been worrying non-stop for months and wasn’t about to stop then.

July 12th, 2013 @ 10:32 pm
Runaway

One of my favorite memories of my mom — of my entire childhood, actually — is singing Runaway by Del Shannon in the car with her and my little sister while driving to St. Paul’s Catholic elementary school. I love that song. She loved that song. She loved singing that song. Mom loved music. And […]